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New Years Resolution

I have never once followed through on a New Years Resolution. This may be due to low willpower or the fact that I’ve never really wanted to follow through on any of them, but I want things to be a little different this year. I want to write every day for one month. It doesn’t need to be January, but I’m going to try to make it January. If I fail I’ll try February. I’ll have 12 shots to do it, so I hope I succeed.

Why do I want to write every day? I was thinking back to my senior year in high school when I went on a trip to Mexico with my AP Spanish class. It was suggested that we keep a journal, but I thought I was above that and I didn’t bother. Now looking back I have some great memories, but I know I must be forgetting things. If I had written things down, even just a list of things I did that day, I could reread it and remember everything that had happened.

I don’t expect any of my months to be terribly interesting, but I want to see if I can. Plus I will be traveling quite a bit this year, so it will be good practice for the future.

I’m not sure if I want to do it in a pen and paper journal (which I am horrible at, I think I type faster than I write at this point) or if I want to blog it or if I want to do it in my iPhone. I may have to find a good journal type application for the iPhone. Or I can just use the notes feature.

Will anyone but me want to read this? No, probably not, but this time I’m not doing it for them, I’m doing it for me, and I think that is why I might actually be able to last longer than a week.

One more resolution, next year I need to go to a real New Years Eve party on 12/31/09. Think I can do it?

Death Cab For Cutie – The New Year

So this is the new year.
And i don’t feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions


Clearly I don’t have enough work

I have lots of free time at work. Enough to read just about anything I want to read. I can chat on AIM and chat with my co-workers. I can even write blog posts, like this one. Reading other people’s blogs inspires me to reflect about my life, and usually some surprising things come out of that reflection. One is that I feel bad reading back through their archives. Like I shouldn’t be reading these personal things they put on the internet for everyone to read. These things they probably wanted read, at least at the time. I personally forget all the things I used to blog about, and if someone were to go back and dredge all those forgotten things to the forefront I might be a little shocked by what I found. I was a different person back then, but the lone reader doesn’t know that. Provided they’ve never met me, or I’ve never met them. Maybe thats why I feel bad. I feel like a stranger riffling through another person’s things. You need to be invited in, offered those things, and then it is okay. So my apologies to Janet. You’ve kept me entertained at work today. Her new stuff is good too, but I read that already.

Sometimes when I’m walking by myself through New York City the song The Only Living Boy in New York pops into my head. I first heard it on the Garden State soundtrack and its been with me ever since. It reminds me of the scene at the opening of Vanilla Sky where Tom Cruise drives into Times Square and he is the only person there. It’s a haunting scene. I feel like I’m the only feeling person in the city. Or at least the only feeling boy. Is that loneliness natural when you’re standing in a crowd? Anyone else ever feel that?

I also feel like I’m from that class of people who are desperately trying to escape what they are and where they came from. It’s not that I don’t like where I came from, I just want to be different. I’m part of that Great Gatsby American Dream. Those people who set out with great expectations and want to someday achieve greatness. It’s a shame. I was having a conversation with a friend. It went something like this:

nick: I suppose if [female] talked about working at camp and called the kids crazy brats and said there was a male camp counselor she was always making eyes with that would be more exciting
friend: did you just make that up in your head?
nick: she does work at a day camp. and after camp if she went to a coffee shop or other place like that and had haughty conversations with the staff, or read a self-important novel and acted like everyone should wish they were her and were getting as much out of this novel as she was. then I’d really want to be there and wish I was reading the same novel and getting the same goodness out of it.
friend: but i would say that a person like that needs to get over themselves
nick: but by the time I get around to [reading] it she has moved onto the latest new thing and can’t be bothered to talk about that novel because it is old hat.
friend: so if you meet her, and shes not like that, is she immediately not interesting? could you give her a chance to be interesting in another way that maybe you don’t realize that you like?
nick: she is interesting in other ways, and I think a different guy would really appreciate those things, but I find that I fake interest in those areas. like the [interests of the female]. they aren’t me. but I [really] should give her more of a shot.
nick: I think I project the things I want to be onto the people I’d like to date. so if I want to be well read, they should be well read; if I want to be an artist, they should be an artist;
friend: i cant disagree with that
nick: if I want to be exciting and be part of the upper crust, they should already be those things. I want to envy their lifestyle so much that I become it.
friend: i think youre right about that.
nick: I’m right? that’s nice.

I’m not entirely sure what this says about me, but I’m working on finding out.

I’ve been watching a lot of CSI, phrases like occipital lobe keep popping into my head. Ever wonder where your mind goes when you aren’t watching it? I was walking in the rain on Sunday and as I drew near my dorm the phrase “Pirates of Penzance” popped into my head. I don’t know where from or why. It wasn’t until I had ridden up the elevator and gone into my room that I realized how odd that was. Where do these things come from?

Code Monkey

I’ve known about Jonathan Coulton for quite a long time. I remember I heard the songs Ikea and Mandelbrot Set on an indiefeed podcast over 2 years ago. Podcasting was just getting big and I got into the whole scene for a while. I never really contributed anything (not that I ever do) but it helped me find lots of indie artists to listen to.

Over the last 2 years I played Ikea for a few friends who found it quite humorous. I never forgot about Jonathan but I figured he had given up the whole music bit. How wrong I was. He did a little thing called Song a Week where he made a new song every week and put it up for free on his site. He made some really great songs like Re: Your Brains, The Presidents, and, my favorite, Code Monkey. He is clever, geeky, and all-around awesome so I suggest you check him out.

I saw Live Free or Die Hard last night and it was awesome. It was a really great action movie and I kinda wish I could see it again. There were so many good lines. Maybe I will see it again if some other friends want to see it.

I want an iPhone. Sure its expensive and probably a waste to get it on launch day but I really want one. I’ll be outside an AT&T store after work on Friday waiting in line to get an 8 GB iPhone. I’ll let you know if I manage to get one.

I took some photos tonight

I’ve been taking lots of photos for the latest SDS production, Little Shop of Horrors, and I was going through some of the photos that I copied to my computer. I was looking at what was on my SD card before I cleared it and I found an interesting photo of me.

It was only interesting because my hair was shorter. In the past I’ve always felt that my hair was very long. I had never grown my hair out, so I had no way to gauge how long hair felt. Well over the last 2 years my hair has been steadily growing longer and longer. I’ve had it cut a few times in between, but I’ve been going for the long hair look.

Looking at this photo vs. how long my hair is now showed a noticeable difference. I wanted to document how long my hair is now so that in 6 months I can look back and take another photo. So I snapped a bunch of pictures and uploaded them to Flickr.

In other news I have a research paper to write this weekend and I’ve been reading parts of Boccaccio’s Decameron. Just the fabliaux. They’re the topic of my paper so I wanted to read some other than the ones in the Canterbury Tales. They’re interesting and I like feeling well read.

I watched A Scanner Darkly for the first time today. I thought it was interesting and I liked the rotoscoped style. I’d like to read the book (as I’d like to read a lot of books) but I don’t have the time right now. It mentioned Ayn Rand’s The Fountainhead and made me want to read it again. Why anyone would want to read it more than once bewilders even me, but I’d like a refresher. Maybe I’d get it more the second time.

I tried playing a video game today. I haven’t been in the mood to play anything other than Guitar Hero for the last few months so I figured I’d give Zone of the Enders – The Second Runner a shot. I played the first 20 minutes of the game and then turned it off. Maybe I’ll go back to it later.

Infected Mushroom came out with a new CD recently: Vicious Delicious. It is definitely a new sound for them and I’m not sure if any of the songs will join my favorites. Admittedly I haven’t spent enough time with the album to really get to know the songs. Bright Eyes also came out with a new CD. I also haven’t had time to digest that one but I don’t know if I really need that kind of angst in my life anymore. He used to epitomize everything I though I was and how I felt but it’s just not me anymore. Maybe he’s changed too. I’ll give it a few more listens before I decide anything.

The “About” Page

For once, I put a decent amount of effort into a page about me. I tried my best to cover all the common questions and attributes, and fill in most of the cursory “what do you likes?” I left out a physical description. If anything I would suggest looking at a photo of me. Make up your own mind, my words probably wouldn’t help.

I wanted to include a list of all the movies I have (over 850 titles) and so I looked for a nice online database where people could see a comprehensive list. I don’t claim to have seen all of these, and it would probably be more useful to have a list of my favorites, but I would hate to leave a good movie off the list simply because when I compiled it I wasn’t in the mood for that movie. I found that iMDB had built in functionality for this, but its not very pretty, so I would caution you against it. I think I’ll make a separate page (like the About page) for movies. Eventually.

I also decided to use for my music page. I could have just listed the myriad of artists I listen to on a regular basis, but I have a very wide range of tastes and didn’t know how to best represent that. I’ve had an account for a very long time, and I fear its a little weighted towards my tastes from two years ago. However, I’m sure that over time it will even out and give a nice summary of my tastes. I still like those bands, I just don’t have much of that music anymore, most of them have stopped making good music, and they never find their way onto my playlists. C’est la vie.

I want to do a page for TV as well. I use a nice tracking webpage,, to let me know when new episodes of all my favorite shows are airing. It doesn’t have a nice page to list show the public, but compiling one should be easy. I could also check and see if TVRage has anything like that. If not, I’ll surely compile a list of my own.

A list of books couldn’t hurt either. Or a list of blogs I subscribe to (thanks to Google Reader). There is certainly a lot more information I could compile about myself, but who knows if it would even be remotely useful to anyone. I suppose we’ll see.

In a few hours (after some sleep) I’ll probably write an update about revision control software, Flyboys, and whatever else tickles my fancy. I’d quote something from Hamlet, but I’m too lazy. Maybe another time.


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